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Me, and the fantasy version of myself

I want to be a good writer. I want to be good at my job. I want to be a good sister. I want to be a good daughter. I want to be a good friend. I want to be the “good Christian” girl we all aspire to be in the daylight, but convince ourselves we are not in the dark. I want to be the girl who is organized, clean, tidy. Who never comes home to a mess left that morning (or the night before). I want to have a routine that’s set in stone, where I get up at the same time every day. Dedicate this much time to my Bible reading, this much time to prayer, this much time to getting ready, and this much time to writing. I want to appear as though I “have my life together.” I want to feel that way too. Let’s be real, there are a lot of things that we want to be and want to do. In a perfect world, in a perfect environment, with unlimited energy and endless motivation. Yeah, right. That’s not going to happen. So, now what? You prioritize. You take the things that you want to be important and you put t